This is the end; things haven’t been good for a while but it didn’t mean that I was expecting that phone call. A phone call from my husband’s girlfriend? Who sees that coming? I sure didn’t.
He had cheated before and I knew things hadn’t been good but I never dreamed he would cheat again. The Lord and I had been talking a lot about my marriage and I knew a big change was coming. I just didn’t know that this was it.
Me divorced; of all the people you know I would not be the one you expect to be divorced. I was deeply saddened but I knew now, this is the path I was to go down.
But how do I live like this? How do I hold my head high and tell people I’m divorced? Divorce is for people who gave up on there a marriage, not me. I fought, I fought for almost 10 years to make this marriage work. I forgave the first affair. How was I supposed to live divorced?
It felt like such a failure.
As time went on and I moved into a new phase of life it was difficult, it was embarrassing. But I knew I had been released from my covenant of marriage. I just didn’t know how to communicate that to others. I knew how judgmental I had been regarding divorce, I just hated for people to look at me like that.
Then I met Alice.
Alice attended the church that I was attending. We met in small group setting where she shared her testimony. I will never forget what a blessing it was to meet Alice. She was a few years older than me and she was happily married to her second husband.
Alice was an amazing, godly woman who had a testimony and ministry in our church. She loved people and she loved her husband. Because she was willing to share her story of divorce and remarriage I found hope. Hope that I would have a ministry again too.
I also had hope that there might be a happily ever after marriage in my life someday.
Today when people meet my husband and I they never guess that we’ve only been married for 6 short years. We fit together like a hand and glove or salt and pepper. We love each other dearly and you are able to be committed and live what a godly marriage looks.
Marriage today is easy, unlike in my first marriage that was always very difficult. Sometimes it is hard to say I’m thankful that the Lord took me through that, but I know that I am the person I am today because of that journey.
I cherish my husband now. I honor and respect him. I’m so thankful to have an opportunity to have a marriage like I do today.
I hope and pray that as I share my story through this blog that I will be an encouragement to you. That you will know that no matter how hard life seems, no matter how unfair things are and no matter what happens to you …even when you think it’s something that could never happen to you. You can move past it, you can, there’s hope!
Our God is sovereign, he loves us more than you know and his plans are perfect! Trust Him and walk close beside Him through this time to the life you didn’t know could exist.
If you are still searching for hope and a relationship with the Lord who loves you more than you know please reach out to me. I would love to talk with you about Him.
Thank you for this incredible story of courage. God is clearly using you to provide hope and strength to many. Thank you for sharing Rayna.
Thanks for your words of encouragement Debbie!